I haven't been updating too much lately... I haven't really been busy, just not much to say. I didn't participate in "Mamarazzi Monday" yesterday because I haven't had any new pictures to update with. We had a 4day this weekend, and we were on the go Friday and Saturday. Sunday was slow & it rained, and yesterday it rained all day. Friday we went to the mall & shopped some, Babies R Us to exchange a carseat, and then Dicks for Cam to try on a fleece he wants. Oh we had Buffalo Wild Wings too, it was ok, I didn't really like what I got, oh well. Our waitress sucked- but I tried to remember it was lunch time, in an Army town. When we got home we took Reese on a long walk and then Cam left to go get dinner. Saturday we went out to a Reservoir Park, part of the reason we picked to go there was because of the huge lake... except we couldn't go swimming. So Cam & Reese were both disappointed. We walked around for about 2 miles, but my shrinking bladder & end of pregnancy made us turn around. Reese was tired anyways, so we just came home and I made dinner. Yesterday we did a few errands, we needed shampoo & conditioner, body wash, & Reese needed treats- so we all piled into my car & did that (in the rain). After dinner we played Battleship, I won & then Cam won... then we stopped playing, I think he was scared to lose again.
So today in the pregnancy world I'm 39 weeks... thats right ladies & gentlemen 1 more week left & I hope that she's here before then. I've been having some contractions, & I think my water is leaking some... just nothing to really warrant a hospital trip. Mostly because they said if I come in & there is no breakage or leaking they'll just send me home... negative ghostrider I find that answer unacceptable. In the last 2 weeks I have seen a medical person 5 times, for decreased fetal movement mostly. My body is progressing on its own getting ready for birth- so lets help little baby Saige out! I have an appointment Wednesday, hopefully she'll either be on her way before then or on that day. I've had enough of this pregnancy thing.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Friday, September 24, 2010
Fill in Friday
What characteristic about yourself has either been strengthened or weakened due to your experience as a Military Spouse? (fromThe Albrecht Squad)
If you could have any fast-food restaurant in the food court on base/post what would you pick? (from The Only Pink in a House of Blue)
If you could have any job in the world regardless of money, degree or experience, which job would you have and why? (from Proud to Be a Navy Family and The Calm Before The Storm)
Oh my, definitely my independence. My mom & I talked a lot about this while Cam was gone. I have always been a strong, independent lady but being married to someone in the military and going through various trainings and deployments only strengthens that. Some days I feel bad for Cam because of how independent I am and how much more the deployment enhanced that. Though I think it helps him in a way to know that I can take care of myself, the house, and be comfortable when he's away.
I have yet to discover my favorite vacation spot. I haven't been many places. I like the Outer Banks in NC for memory reasons and it seems to never change, Myrtle Beach was fun when I was younger and I don't mind it now, but its not my favorite.
If you could have any fast-food restaurant in the food court on base/post what would you pick? (from The Only Pink in a House of Blue)
Haha, I go on the post hardly ever, so I'm not really sure what is there to eat. I think there's usually a Taco Bell & Charley's. Out of those 2 I would pick Taco Bell
We didn't go on our honeymooon, 2 nights after our wedding I got really really sick and wasn't better by the time we were supposed to leave to go. We contacted the company (little cottage in the mountains) and told them about everything going on & that Cam was leaving for training the next week and they offered to keep our deposit and let us schedule for any time in 2010. We still haven't gone, because in February Cam left for deployment, just got home the end of August and by that time it was too late in the pregnancy to travel that far. Maybe one day we'll get something awesome like that, but I don't feel like I've really missed out on anything.
If you could have any job in the world regardless of money, degree or experience, which job would you have and why? (from Proud to Be a Navy Family and The Calm Before The Storm)
I would love love love to work at St. Jude's Children's Hospital. Actually it is my dream to work there, and I will one day. I absolutely love kids and cancer has had a huge impact on my life, so why not combine the two? I love how kids are so innocent and imaginative and they never seem to let things get them down.
Monday, September 20, 2010
Mamarazzi Monday
Its here again, the start to another week. I'm not sure what to post pictures of really... I mean my baby girl isn't here yet, so I'm grasping for straws. I guess I can show off some of my photography work.
A waterfall in the butterfly house at a "botanical gardens" type place in GA. I can't remember the name of the place right off my head right now.
Butterfly, from the same place.
My cat back home.
On the beach in North Myrtle Beach, SC
Plant in front of my momma's front porch.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Friday Fill In & DR appointment.
How do you spend your deployment money, do you save, pay off bills or enjoy the extra money while it is there to buy the things you do not normally have? (from Troop Petrie)
We saved a great deal of money, and we spent some. We didn't do any unnecessary spending, just maternity clothes, some shirts and shoes for Cam, and stuff for the house. I can't see not saving money or paying down debts, realistically when else do you get that chance?
If you could relive one occasion or moment, what would it be? (from Currently On Land)
I would go back to the day before my aunt passed and not be a lazy bum. Seriously, because I didn't feel like getting up and ready for the day I didn't go see her, I hate myself for it every day.
What’s the worst job you ever had and if it was so bad why did you take it? (from Faith and Deploying)
Honestly, none of my jobs have been horrible. I've had one job where I was unhappy because of the lack of work they had for me. I mean I spent 8 hours there and my work was complete by the 3rd hour and they would try to find busy work for me. I left that place after about 2 months because they didn't want to just let me do part-time.
If you could play any character on TV, who would you be? (from Many Waters)
Hmm, I don't think I would. I mean I like characters in different shows but not enough to want to play them.
If you could become the world’s expert in something, what would it be? (fromArmy of Two)
Oh goodness, there are a few things. Medicine, Cancer, why some people don't have common sense, how to get common sense if you don't come equipped with it. There are more, but I'm feeling lazy.
Oh, I had a DR appointment today... we did a pelvic exam, I'm 70% effaced still -2 station and a definite 2cm dilated. I was having pretty constant contractions after the appointment but they've slowed and gone random again. I'm pretty ready to have my child here, I mean in 2 days my cervix has thinned another 20% I think thats pretty good for a 1st timer. I also had to do another NST, Cam fell asleep in the recliner next to me, it showed all things good with Saige's heart and some contractions. Then they sent me for an ultrasound to check my fluid levels, since its been almost 8 weeks we went ahead and did some growth measurements also. My water hasn't sprung a leak, Saige is in position and low and as usual wouldn't show her face. In fact my child was laying in quite a drama queen position with her hand/arm over her eyes and forehead. They estimated her at about 6lb11oz but they can be off a pound either way.
We saved a great deal of money, and we spent some. We didn't do any unnecessary spending, just maternity clothes, some shirts and shoes for Cam, and stuff for the house. I can't see not saving money or paying down debts, realistically when else do you get that chance?
If you could relive one occasion or moment, what would it be? (from Currently On Land)
I would go back to the day before my aunt passed and not be a lazy bum. Seriously, because I didn't feel like getting up and ready for the day I didn't go see her, I hate myself for it every day.
What’s the worst job you ever had and if it was so bad why did you take it? (from Faith and Deploying)
Honestly, none of my jobs have been horrible. I've had one job where I was unhappy because of the lack of work they had for me. I mean I spent 8 hours there and my work was complete by the 3rd hour and they would try to find busy work for me. I left that place after about 2 months because they didn't want to just let me do part-time.
If you could play any character on TV, who would you be? (from Many Waters)
Hmm, I don't think I would. I mean I like characters in different shows but not enough to want to play them.
If you could become the world’s expert in something, what would it be? (fromArmy of Two)
Oh goodness, there are a few things. Medicine, Cancer, why some people don't have common sense, how to get common sense if you don't come equipped with it. There are more, but I'm feeling lazy.
Oh, I had a DR appointment today... we did a pelvic exam, I'm 70% effaced still -2 station and a definite 2cm dilated. I was having pretty constant contractions after the appointment but they've slowed and gone random again. I'm pretty ready to have my child here, I mean in 2 days my cervix has thinned another 20% I think thats pretty good for a 1st timer. I also had to do another NST, Cam fell asleep in the recliner next to me, it showed all things good with Saige's heart and some contractions. Then they sent me for an ultrasound to check my fluid levels, since its been almost 8 weeks we went ahead and did some growth measurements also. My water hasn't sprung a leak, Saige is in position and low and as usual wouldn't show her face. In fact my child was laying in quite a drama queen position with her hand/arm over her eyes and forehead. They estimated her at about 6lb11oz but they can be off a pound either way.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
It is now Thursday
I haven't blogged since Monday, I'm slacking. I have had a very very interesting week, Monday was rather uneventful other than housework & keeping up with Reese. Tuesday I hit 37weeks pregnant yayyy! Tuesday would be where all the fun started I guess you could say. Cam was at work ALL DAY doing stupid stuff because some stupid person lost somthing, or so they thought. I have a bit of advice C Co 1/508 PIR, communication goes a long long way! Anywho, so Tuesday early evening I went into L&D because baby Saige hadn't moved at all. We were monitored for a few hours, her heartbeat looks fine. I was having random moments contractions coming in at 2 minutes apart and some of them I didn't even feel. So the nurse did an exam too, I'm about 1.5-2cm dilated, 50% effaced and at a -2 station. When the doctor on call came over he said that since I was full term and have lessened fetal movement he would induce if we wanted but there were some "issues" with that. He explained everything very well and Cam really liked him. Needless to say, we opted to come home and just wait things out. I have an appoint on Friday (tomorrow) to see this same doctor and we'll discuss more from there. Maybe we can go ahead and schedule an induction for next week? Anywho, I've had contractions here at home since then but nothing regular (at least not that I'm aware).
Me, 37weeks!
Yesterday, we did a ton of shopping. Cam had to get things for work, surprise surprise, and I needed nursing bras & camis. We bought Saige's little costume and a boppy pillow, diapers, wipes, you know all the fun stuff! Then we came home ate dinner and took Reese for a long walk.
Stay tuned for tomorrows entry!
Monday, September 13, 2010
mamarazzi monday
My sweet sweet Reese cuddling with her daddy. She's very glad he's home, but this is an unusual sight for the both of them. They're normally wrestling around with one another.
Reese at my parents house playing in the baby pool, it took her a little bit to warm up to it, but she likes it.
Reese when she was a young one, I believe this was November (mid month) 2009. Her first time at the beach and she just loved it. I can't believe how tiny she was!
Reese at Cam's parents sitting pretty in the chair. There is a globe to the right of the chair, she was very interested in it and learning Geography. I had to show here where daddy was.
Friday, September 10, 2010
I hate stepping on a wet bathroom rug!
I know I've told Cam that several times, just dry your feet off in the shower then step on the mat or throw a towel over it then step... but no, soaking wet feet go on the mat & then the soaking wet body drips on it. GROSS GROSS GROSS!!! I don't know what it is, but actually its any surface thats wet that shouldn't be and you're not expecting it. Magnify my hatred for this by 1000 if I have socks on, there is nothing more disgusting than wet socks.
So, if you couldn't guess and haven't read any of my previous entries... Cam is home. I love that he is home safe and sound, but living with someone is certainly an adjustment. We lived together for about a month and half before he deployed & before that he was in training, so we're still learning each others quirks and habits. For instance, Cam likes to turn on every light in the bedroom while he's in the shower... 4 lights in the ceiling fan, 1 in the closet, 1 in the bathroom, and the 10 at the vanity. I haven't asked, but maybe he's afraid of the dark... in the middle of the afternoon? I, however, freak out at all the lights being on & even more so since its day time & windows/blinds can be open to let sun in. At night, Cam doesn't turn a damn light on & if I have even one on he wants it off... what the heck?! I am weird about having people in the kitchen while I'm cooking, our kitchen isn't small & there's enough room for 2-3 people, but if you're not in there doing something productive GET OUT! Cam thinks I'm weird because I "recycle" ice, I mean if I've finished my drink there's still ice in the cup and I'm getting the same drink why do I need new ice? HIs argument, "we have an ice maker, it gives us free ice I'm going to use it" but we pay for water & electricity making the ice NOT FREE. I have also got to get used to Cam's "drop it leave it' method... yes thats right my husband leaves anything laying where he took it off or dropped it. There were 4 pairs of shoes in the living room yesterday, all belonging to my husband, this morning I wake up and there are a pair of pajama pants. This method doesn't only take place with shoes and clothes, there was a cup from last night on the coffee table, my wii remote too, on the bar there is who knows what. I guess because I'm a shoe fanatic I don't understand leaving shoes out, I take mine up they go back in their box and in the closet. Dirty clothes, in the hamper, I swear thats why we have one- but apparently its a "catch-all". Those are just a few things that will take some training and adjusting- I just need patience, which isn't something that comes naturally to me.
As you know, today is Friday, usually I do a "fill-in friday" but today the questions just didn't really interest me. Maybe next week.
So, if you couldn't guess and haven't read any of my previous entries... Cam is home. I love that he is home safe and sound, but living with someone is certainly an adjustment. We lived together for about a month and half before he deployed & before that he was in training, so we're still learning each others quirks and habits. For instance, Cam likes to turn on every light in the bedroom while he's in the shower... 4 lights in the ceiling fan, 1 in the closet, 1 in the bathroom, and the 10 at the vanity. I haven't asked, but maybe he's afraid of the dark... in the middle of the afternoon? I, however, freak out at all the lights being on & even more so since its day time & windows/blinds can be open to let sun in. At night, Cam doesn't turn a damn light on & if I have even one on he wants it off... what the heck?! I am weird about having people in the kitchen while I'm cooking, our kitchen isn't small & there's enough room for 2-3 people, but if you're not in there doing something productive GET OUT! Cam thinks I'm weird because I "recycle" ice, I mean if I've finished my drink there's still ice in the cup and I'm getting the same drink why do I need new ice? HIs argument, "we have an ice maker, it gives us free ice I'm going to use it" but we pay for water & electricity making the ice NOT FREE. I have also got to get used to Cam's "drop it leave it' method... yes thats right my husband leaves anything laying where he took it off or dropped it. There were 4 pairs of shoes in the living room yesterday, all belonging to my husband, this morning I wake up and there are a pair of pajama pants. This method doesn't only take place with shoes and clothes, there was a cup from last night on the coffee table, my wii remote too, on the bar there is who knows what. I guess because I'm a shoe fanatic I don't understand leaving shoes out, I take mine up they go back in their box and in the closet. Dirty clothes, in the hamper, I swear thats why we have one- but apparently its a "catch-all". Those are just a few things that will take some training and adjusting- I just need patience, which isn't something that comes naturally to me.
As you know, today is Friday, usually I do a "fill-in friday" but today the questions just didn't really interest me. Maybe next week.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
I've been tagged...
but first, my doctors appointment. Starting last week my doctor's appointments will be every week, yes thats right 1 day a week for the next 3-5 weeks will be spent sitting an hour or few at the doctors. Luckily, I like my doctors office & the doctor I'm hoping will deliver my sweet sweet offspring. So today I came in and waited FOREVER in the waiting room, then finally saw my DR. "Any questions, issues, concerns?" Why yes, my child hasn't been moving so much, my kick counts aren't working too well and I'm concerned. So he listened to her heart, said it sounded good then measured my fundus and then sent me a few rooms down for a non-stress test. That was MAGICAL, I got to sit for 20 minutes in this huge, squishy recliner. I mean I was of course hooked to monitors but that chair made up for it. Anywho, they deemed Saige is fine and that next week I get to do all the same stuff again. Cam was with me at his appointment, the 2nd one he's been to but the first time he's heard her heart beat... he was in love.
Now, I have been tagged by the marvelous Jessica (who coordinates weddings, particularly military weddings) to list 7 things about myself. Where oh where to begin.
1. I'm a screamer, whether I'm alone or in a room full of people... if there is a bug & I have spotted it I've probably screamed. I can not stand a bug, any bug; however, my severe distaste comes from roaches (& the like) and spiders.
2. I may be biased, but I'm sure I have the most entertaining dog ever. She makes cute little chubacca (however you spell it) noises, bounces around like a deer, and shows her bottom teeth to you while you're eating something.
3. I love love love Audrey Hepburn and Marilyn Monroe. I collect Marilyn things and have a small amount of stuff on Audrey. I'm very fascinated by them and their lives and how they lived. Plus they both were classy woman.
4. I am quite uncensored... I have tried to be a little bit better about it, but its a daily struggle and I'm about to give up. It is quite hilarious when you get myself, sister, mom, aunt & cousin together and we get on a roll. We have been known to teach an old lady a thing or two she could've went the rest of her life without knowing. Generally we mean no harm, but you know there's always someone who gets offended or what not. Along with this, I'm pretty perverted... more than most guys.
5. I have a passion for photography, I just slack at going out and getting the shots. I also get worried about bringing my camera out to different locations because I don't want it getting messed up. I should link some pictures to this blog for your viewing pleasures. I'm going to work on this more once the baby gets here, but as much as I love taking pictures of people to capture memories and being in them this is not the sort of photography that interests me.
6. I have a very strong love for Coach, Kathy VanZeeland, and Dooney & Bourke purses. I just got a new Coach purse for my birthday from my In-laws, now I need a new Dooney. I look at their websites about 3-4 times a week and "window" shop but never buy... I know Cam won't say no, but he never asks for anything and I feel bad for even talking to him about the purses.
7. I am a major girly girl. I don't always dress super girly, but thats because I'd rather be cute and comfy than done up but don't let that fool you. As I've mentioned, I hate bugs but my hatred doesn't stop there. I hate hate hate grass, and refuse to walk through wet grass (it is so disgusting). I don't like getting dirty and can't stand anything under my fingernails. Camping is completely out of the question unless there is a flushing toilet, excellent shower, and an actual room and bed to sleep in. I used to have a huge distaste for sand when I was younger, I somehow outgrew that, probably because my mom had my sister & I at the beach 2 days a week all summer long for many years. I think girls shouldn't have to take out the trash (from inside or the big cans), or clean toilets, and the only reason I don't disagree with cleaning up dog poop is because we change diapers so willingly.
I'm tagging...
1. Amber at 4guys4me
2. Jennye at Mommy loves cupcakes and tattoos
3. Trisha at Cloth diaper sniffer
4. Laurie at Cows and Combat boots
5. Jess at Diapers Dogtags & Delicious Dishes
6. Noel at Issued to a Soldier
7. Natalie at Life as a Dreamer
Ready, Set, Go ladies!
Now, I have been tagged by the marvelous Jessica (who coordinates weddings, particularly military weddings) to list 7 things about myself. Where oh where to begin.
1. I'm a screamer, whether I'm alone or in a room full of people... if there is a bug & I have spotted it I've probably screamed. I can not stand a bug, any bug; however, my severe distaste comes from roaches (& the like) and spiders.
2. I may be biased, but I'm sure I have the most entertaining dog ever. She makes cute little chubacca (however you spell it) noises, bounces around like a deer, and shows her bottom teeth to you while you're eating something.
3. I love love love Audrey Hepburn and Marilyn Monroe. I collect Marilyn things and have a small amount of stuff on Audrey. I'm very fascinated by them and their lives and how they lived. Plus they both were classy woman.
4. I am quite uncensored... I have tried to be a little bit better about it, but its a daily struggle and I'm about to give up. It is quite hilarious when you get myself, sister, mom, aunt & cousin together and we get on a roll. We have been known to teach an old lady a thing or two she could've went the rest of her life without knowing. Generally we mean no harm, but you know there's always someone who gets offended or what not. Along with this, I'm pretty perverted... more than most guys.
5. I have a passion for photography, I just slack at going out and getting the shots. I also get worried about bringing my camera out to different locations because I don't want it getting messed up. I should link some pictures to this blog for your viewing pleasures. I'm going to work on this more once the baby gets here, but as much as I love taking pictures of people to capture memories and being in them this is not the sort of photography that interests me.
6. I have a very strong love for Coach, Kathy VanZeeland, and Dooney & Bourke purses. I just got a new Coach purse for my birthday from my In-laws, now I need a new Dooney. I look at their websites about 3-4 times a week and "window" shop but never buy... I know Cam won't say no, but he never asks for anything and I feel bad for even talking to him about the purses.
7. I am a major girly girl. I don't always dress super girly, but thats because I'd rather be cute and comfy than done up but don't let that fool you. As I've mentioned, I hate bugs but my hatred doesn't stop there. I hate hate hate grass, and refuse to walk through wet grass (it is so disgusting). I don't like getting dirty and can't stand anything under my fingernails. Camping is completely out of the question unless there is a flushing toilet, excellent shower, and an actual room and bed to sleep in. I used to have a huge distaste for sand when I was younger, I somehow outgrew that, probably because my mom had my sister & I at the beach 2 days a week all summer long for many years. I think girls shouldn't have to take out the trash (from inside or the big cans), or clean toilets, and the only reason I don't disagree with cleaning up dog poop is because we change diapers so willingly.
I'm tagging...
1. Amber at 4guys4me
2. Jennye at Mommy loves cupcakes and tattoos
3. Trisha at Cloth diaper sniffer
4. Laurie at Cows and Combat boots
5. Jess at Diapers Dogtags & Delicious Dishes
6. Noel at Issued to a Soldier
7. Natalie at Life as a Dreamer
Ready, Set, Go ladies!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Stupid Internet
The last few days our internet & phone have been acting up. Of course Cam thinks its a conspiracy against him because he's been playing COD online and it gives out while he's playing, it has also been messing up during movies he wants to watch. I guess I can see where he thinks the Charter is working against him lol. We had a great weekend, we did have an argument, but what couple doesn't, other than that we spent time together, had ice cream for dinner one night and cuddled and watched movies all day yesterday. Saturday I did meet one of the guys from Cam's platoon, he was nice. We went to 316 Oyster Bar, pretty good food. The guys ate a ton, but they like oysters and that sort of thing, I ate a ton of hushpuppies and shrimp lol. Unfortunately it made me sick. We'll be going back there one day. Cam says we can go to Raleigh to eat at Melting Pot, Cheesecake Factory, or PF Changs soon... I guess it will have to be very soon since I'm 36 weeks pregnant and Raleigh is an hour away.
Reese has been clingy lately, to both Cam & myself. I think she's soo excited to have Cam home and worries about him leaving again and she just knows something different is going on with me. I hope she's good with the baby and doesn't get jealous.
Reese has been clingy lately, to both Cam & myself. I think she's soo excited to have Cam home and worries about him leaving again and she just knows something different is going on with me. I hope she's good with the baby and doesn't get jealous.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Mamarazzi Monday
Today, I will entertain you with pictures of Saige's room, it is finally completed!
So this is the room, when you first walk in the door. Look how cute and cozy!
This is the wall opposite of the window, that head & foot board will be gone in a few days to storage. Her stroller is folded up waiting to be used and her carseat is sitting waiting to be installed. The changing table will move closer to the crib & be a bit more organized than it is now. Thats Saige's dirty clothes hamper and my diaper bag to the right of the changing table.
TAAAA-DDAAAAAA the baby's crib and bedding and wall decor! I changed my mind about this bedding several different times. Online the pictures didn't do it justice and it took Babies R Us forever to set it up in store so I could see how it looked. It is perfect, bright, girly but not too girly. That is the swing and the bumbo to the left of the crib, I'm sure they'll make their way into the living room.
A close up of her bedding. I know you're in love too!
You've seen these objects in the first picture, this is just from the opposite wall. The safe will be moved and our change car will take its place in her room. We've decided that she should have it... but I've been left with the thought "what if we have more kids, we can't cheat them". So I guess we'll figure that out later, but anywho... here is our daughter's room, now we're just waiting for her arrival.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Fill in Friday & More
1. What is a weird/funny superstition that you have?
Superstition, I don't really have any other than no broken mirrors or walking under ladders. I mean I have plenty of quirks but none for superstitious reasons.
2. What are your hopes and dreams for the years AFTER the military? After all, we aren’t in it forever!
I just want to be able to make ends meet & save just like we are now. I would love for my husband to have a job with a set schedule and steady paycheck and for him to be happy. For myself, hopefully I'll be done with school (at least my CNA) and working. Our baby will be about 3 at this time, that should be fun!
3. Since [this] month is National Apple Month (no really!), I’d probably ask: What is your yummiest apple recipe?
No apple recipes, I don't really eat apples very often.
4. How long have you gone as a military spouse without talking to your husband/wife during service?
I'm considering myself very very lucky, I think the longest we've gone for military reasons without talking was a little over 2 weeks.
5. I occasionally watch When I was 17… on MTV. So, what was something that was significant about your 17th year of life?
I was a senior in High School and graduated, I got accepted into 5 out of 6 colleges I applied to.
Now for the more:
I went to the doctor on Wednesday, at that point I was 35weeks 1 day pregnant. Anywho, I had the GBS test done, so hopefully my results come back negative... I don't want to sit with an IV in my arm during labor. I told the doctor I was also having cramping/pressure really low in my abdomen and pelvic area. So since we were already down there he checked to see what was going on with my cervix. He said I was really low but fully thick and about 1/2cm dilated. How exciting! He also felt around my stomach and said baby was head down, she moved! However, I worry that she'll move again to her usual horizontal position. I think this is a completely justified fear seeing how she was attacking the left & right side of my abdomen the other night at the same time. I hope things keep progressing, I would love to get her out naturally & not induce. Speaking of induction, Cam & I talked and he would like to schedule a date for induction because until block leave starts he's supposed to be busy busy at work and I might not be able to reach him. I'm not sure what having an induction date will do for that if I go into labor before that but whatever, if he's comfortable.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Why Can't I Speak Up?
I have the hardest time opening my mouth and speaking up to my family. I can blast a stranger or a friend in a heartbeat with my opinion but when it comes to my family I just keep everything to myself. I mean there of course are times when I open my mouth but not when it should really matter. I have a habit of waiting until I just can't contain it anymore then everything is worse than it should be. I should really work on this issue, but I sincerely hate confrontation and how people can make me feel guilty. I mean, my in-laws are disrespecting me and my role as their son's wife and I don't say anything, and my husband wants to go 3 hours away to visit his parents and I don't want him too and still I don't say anything. Its not that I don't want him to go, its that they were already planning to come here this weekend for a day so why not let them? Why do I have to be the one who has just gone 6+ months without you being home and yet you're fine with leaving again? I'm pretty sure if I say something he'll try to guilt trip me or either be pissy, neither which I feel like dealing with. I haven't addressed the in-law situation because I don't feel like being lied to (especially to my face) and I think that is something that Cam should handle, after all they are his parents. So I'll probably just sit here in silence until I grow a pair or until I get pissed enough to say something.
I'll update more later about my baby adventures, I had a doctor appointment yesterday.
I'll update more later about my baby adventures, I had a doctor appointment yesterday.
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