I lied

A few posts ago I said I would get more regular about blogging, and while I meant it, I failed.  I have been meaning to blog, but I have this lack of desire, inspiration, & drive.  I'll post more on that later.  But for now, enjoy my beautiful baby!  She is almost 5 months old, and has just started rolling from stomach to back.

first time going to church

naughty baby showing mommy her middle finger

she liked the crab (NC fort fisher aquarium)

pretty girl on a pretty day

wearing Daddy's hat

giveaway

A fantastic lady, Shaka, at shakajamee is giving away a $25 gift card to Mac Cosmetics, details from her post below!

so i’m feeling like a peach today and decided to do a giveaway for a 25$ MAC cosmetics gift card to be picked at random.  the winner will be chosen on WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 23.

-to enter (mandatory) leave a comment telling me what you’d buy with it.  make sure that you leave an email address for me to contact you if you win!

-for an extra entry you can tweet this post

-for another extra you can reblog this and comment with a link

please leave a comment after you’ve done each one of these so you can have multiple chances to win!

women & body image

Ok, so in my last post I said I had mentioned that I had a post about this video & post from Carissa.  It talks about how hard women are on their body image, and give statistics that are very ver interesting.  It occurred to me how, after having Saige, I am so much happier with myself physically.  Now, I'm not model, nor close to being one by looks or size- but I'm ok with that.  The last time I was this happy with my physical appearance it was between 2006-2008ish.  I had lost a huge amount of weight and that made me happy.  Sadly, the weight loss was all that made me happy, those years there were a little rough.  Thats another post I'll have to write one day down the road.  Anywho, when I got pregnant, I wasn't really happy with my size or weight or the way I carried my weight.  I was lucky & only gained 20lbs during my pregnancy & I didn't gain it fast & mostly it was in my stomach/hips area.  I delivered Saige with only 3 stretch marks & immediately lost 15lbs. It took me about another month to lose the last 5 & that was ok.  I don't know what has given me the confidence now, maybe its my maturity, maybe its knowing what made my body this way?  Either way, who cares.  I do make negative remarks about my body still, although not as often & mostly their in a joking manner, but I am going to work on lessening that even more.  I can say that I look in the mirror when I'm getting dressed or getting ready to walk out the door and am pleased.  I love that my clothes fit, and fall down a little, that I'm not tugging at my shirts or wearing over-sized shirts to hide my pudge.  I have a pudge yes, but I'm not perfect and nor do I try to be.  I have thought about starting up many different exercise videos & training, and when I'm ready I will start them.  I don't feel any pressure to tone up or lose more weight, from myself, husband, or society and that is something that I am so grateful for.  Sometimes I wonder if this came about because I had Saige.  Like Carissa, I would never ever want my little girl to hear my talk negatively about myself (in any way), because the pressure for girls to be "perfect" & skinny is too strong as it is and I would never ever want Saige to crack under that pressure or to hate her looks.  I would rather her be happy with herself & the looks she was given and will grow with and embrace them.

I would like to thank

Thats right, I won an award.  Not as exciting as a Grammy, Tony, or VMA but an award nonetheless.  Well, its still pretty cool, it means people read my blog!

Carissa, at Domiciliary-artillery awarded me with...

I love following Carrisa's blog, she gives tons of neat little projects to do with your kid(s) and recipes on for eating healthy.  Actually, one of her latest posts Fat Talk, who's really listening, has inspired a blog post I've yet to write.

This award comes with some stipulations, rules rather, but they're simple enough.

- Thank the person who gave you the award

- Share 7 things about yourself

- Pass the award on to 10 versatile bloggers

- Let those bloggers know you gave them the award

#1. I have a constant line up of songs constantly playing through my mind & I can usually find a song to fit a situation

#2. I am agreeing with Carissa on this, I have buyers remorse, it is a disease, not a disorder lol.  I will go to buy myself clothes, books, cds, etc and by the time I read the front of the store to check out everything intended for myself is put back.  I don't have the same issue when it comes to buying things for Cam, Saige, or Reese.

#3. I am a huge supporter of breast cancer, I am not a strong financial donor other than buying things with the pink ribbon on it & that donates money to Susan G. Komen or another BC foundation.  I go daily to Breast Cancer Site & click on the button to give a woman a free mammogram.  Breast Cancer hits close to my heart, as I lost my aunt whom I was extremely close with to a very long battle.

#4. I love watching movies, I'm pretty well rounded in my favorites.  I love watching animated kids movies & I can jump right into a horror flick afterwards, followed by a romantic comedy.

#5. My mom & I are like best friends.  I know most people say they tell their mom everything, but I mean it when I say I tell my mom everything & she probably wishes that I left out some details/stories but I know she's appreciated my honesty, especially while growing up.

#6. I have a slight obsession with cookies.  I can't tell you exactly when it began, as I wasn't always this way, but its here to stay I believe.

#7. There were many many times during my pregnancy that I was bound & determined to go vegetarian for various reasons, and I would swear that "after I eat the meat thats in the freezer right now..." and it never stuck.  I don't think my husband would go for this anyways.

Now, here are some lovely ladies that I follow

Kimbo West at A Girl and a Glue Gun

Trish at Cloth Diaper Sniffer

Crystal at I'm Such a Girl

Noel at Issued to a Soldier

Jessica at Its a Beautiful Ride

Chelle at Monkey-Loo

Dayle at The Science of Home

Airiel at Simply, Bites

Michelle at Virginia Beach Housewife

Amber at 4Guys4Me

it seems to be all too true

Every time I post about me getting back on track with blogging, I fall right back off the horse after posting 2-3 entries fairly close together.  I have an excuse from the last post, I've moved & have been getting settled in and updating our contact info with dr's, banks, etc.  The house is coming together, we have plenty of space and are so much closer to the city (actually, I think they call this a town, I'm not sure this is too "small" for me).  Reese is adjusting ok, she hates that there is no fence for her to go running outside, so she has to go on a lead.  Getting her to go to the bathroom on que is a bit of a task, she's never been one to go on a leash.  Anywho, Saige's room is still getting put together, all the big stuff is done & where I want it, I just have to get her decor up.  Thats been a little less that simple, seeing how she's been a big crab lately & sucks at napping.  She's currently screaming at me while I type this (insert an image of me pulling out my hair in your mind).  Cam has been working crazy hours & long nights, so I've had little help... hopefully this weekend will be calm & good weather and we can get out and do things.

So, since I'm making dinner I must go.. but I swear, I'll get my blogging back on track!

moving = my worst enemy

I am writing this blog in the Pages program on my Mac, because I have no internet (also, no cable or telephone).  I turned all the equipment in to the company today so that I could be free & clear of anyone’s crap that wasn’t mine & couldn’t go with us.  I won’t have internet, phone or cable until monday afternoon... my weekend should be f-ing fabulous!  The good thing (maybe?) is that I’ll be busy, because we’re moving & trying to get most everything unpacked and set up before Monday when Cam goes into work.  We’re still at Bragg (no, no don’t be excited this place is for the birds), just a bigger house & closer to people instead of cows.  This is a very short notice sort of move, because the lady we’ve been working with neglects calling anyone back until the absolute last minute.  So, because its a short move I am cramming everything into days, not weeks, but days (and I mean 3-4) to get everything over with.  On top of this, I have Reese to entertain & keep out of my ass.  Saige needs to be played with, fed, changed, and put down for her nap(s).  While I’m packing, I’m trying to really clean, and get rid of things that we don’t want anymore and can donate or what needs to be trashed.  I don’t feel like I’m getting anything done, because I have to do ALL OF THAT... where is Cam you ask?  Good freaking question, this would be the week where they’re working until 6-7pm or if they get out at 5 he’s not home until 6 because traffic is so bad.  Oh yeah, and then He got off early (like 2) Thursday because he had to be back at work at 1am thru whenever to do who knows what.  This was supposed to count as his duty, but in regular Army fashion things change when you need them to work they way its supposed to, so Cam is standing duty (or whatever the Army calls it) until tomorrow morning.  I am here alone to do all of this crap, yet another day this week.  Seriously, I know what I married into, I was/am prepared to do any and everything on my own... but really, sometimes I would just like a damn break.  To make things even more interesting, Cam will be running off of 3 hours sleep before working 31 hours & then having to load our truck full of our crap.  He should be pleasant (notice the sarcasm) & understandably so.  The highlight of all of this, WE BOUGHT NEW FURNITURE!  We got a steal of a deal, new couch, loveseat, coffee table & mattress/box spring set for $2000.  Up next on our list of purchases are blinds, dining set, & lamps for our house.  Yes, lamps because apparently having light fixtures in the ceiling is not the cool thing to do, who would’ve thought?

Anywho, hopefully I’ll survive this & write another blog to tell you all about the adventures.

PS, my mom & sister are coming to help move & watch Saige, SCORE!  I need a little taste of home.