day 4

so, it has been four days since Cam has left.  I've done exceptionally well & have only cried once.  I've gotten to talk to him everyday so far & sometimes more than once.  I fear that he has landed in the dreaded place though & I probably won't get much communication.  It's ok, I'm prepared about as much as I can be for that.  Reese has been a little more playful today, but in doing so she's also been looking for Cam too.  It breaks my heart that she doesn't realize he's not here.  I'm worried that she may not remember him when he does come home or might act funny.  I've been feeling sick today ALL DAY, i truly hate these sort of days.  It makes it almost impossible to get things done.  I did clean the kitchen & get all of our mail and paperwork sorted & organized.  I did get some comfort talking to another army wife whose husband is in dh's unit though. she's heard the same rumor I have heard (and our husbands aren't in the same place)!  This could be very very good.... but of course with all things Army you hope for the best & prepare for the worst.